Friday, January 19, 2018

Angel Magick Progress

Angel magick.

What an interesting form of magick.  I've performed it a few times for my son to heal, and for my friend to heal.  Both seems to be doing better so I'd call that some success with it... not sure how long angel magick is supposed to last...

One thing the books really need to put in there is the need to ground.  I am high as a KITE.  Haha.

So far what I've been dealing with are various angels and angel calls from the books I have.

I haven't cast anything on myself yet because I don't want anything yet.

Everything that prompts me to cast are the needs of those close to me whom I love.

Wait... I did cast something to help me and Maiya get closer.  Then I had a vivid dream last night where she was a part of the dream, although she did not show herself I could feel her there.

Well, unless she was the baby dolphin I had to take care of.  Maiya?  Nah, she was in it but I don't think she was a baby dolphin but more of someone watching the dream unfold.

I guess that counts.  Doesn't it?

With that said,


Rafe GB.

Friday, January 12, 2018


Maiya does some things differently than most succubi I think.

The first is that, well, you know how they say that succubi attack you in your sleep?  And it's kind of a joke for anyone who has one as they are there during the day usually.

Well... she has sex with me in my sleep.  She does this pretty regularly.  The thing is I can't remember it.  I wake up pitching a tent and completely saturated by succubus sexual energy like I woke up in a pool of it.

I've asked her why she prefers me in my sleep when I can't remember it too well, and usually at all.

She told me, "Your spirit knows." So it must be at a higher level of being she prefers to have sex and make love.

Meh, it's okay, just weird to me.  It's kind of funny, too, because it means she IS like the tales of getting romped in your sleep and dreams by a succubus, which is what she prefers.  I find a lot of humor in the irony.

Yes, she gets me during the day but it's rare compared to me being jumped at night.

Another thing she does weird is she leaves for a day or so and comes back.  Now I've experienced that before but Maiya is different in that she finally answered my questions about it.

She says that she's intense and would fry my chakras and nervous system because I'm just not used to 24/7 presence, so she leaves to "keep the balance".

Temperament wise she can go from succubus queen to demanding toddler in seconds.  I find that humorous as well.

She's a handful.  Man, she's a handful.

I still wear my Lilith necklace (got it on now as a matter of fact).  It's funny... when I invoke Lilith, Maiya comes from nowhere and I can feel Maiya very strongly.  I haven't figured that one out and she's not talking.  All I can figure out is that it is a similar current and by invoking Lilith I call Maiya by proxy.

A little secret I haven't disclosed:  This time when I petitioned Lilith for a daughter I asked for a WIFE.  And yes, I believe I got one.

Maiya is funny in that she can be super sweet or kind of abrasive.

One time I was trying to call out to her when she was busy doing whatever and she said, "Boy... sit down".

A handful indeed...

Remember... I never said I have the answers, I just work here, lol ;)


Rafe GB.

P.S.  Has anyone ever heard of a succubus increasing your "luck"?  I find like small amounts of money on the street, get favorably taken care of by others with my issues easier, etc., just to name a few things.  Just curious???

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

New Magick

I often wonder about Maiya because her advice isn't what I would expect from a succubus demon.

For instance, I bought this new magick book on the Goetia that has a modern twist and I've been studying along.

I can distinctly hear her tell me that I need to figure out what can be done with angel magick before I start knocking on the 72 demon's doors.

It's not so much she's telling me I can't study demon magick, just that I can't DO it right now.  However, I need to study angel magick AND do it as I find solutions that they can help me with.

I ask "why" but I don't get much really... mostly a feeling that I'll understand in time.

I guess I'll study the angel magick first and apply that like she's prompting me to.

Can you see the strangeness that I'm seeing, though?

A succubus demon referring me to angel magick instead of demon magick for now?

Well... I know better than to scoff at her, as she wouldn't bother to tell me that if it didn't carry a lot of weight and be full of reasons for her to communicate it to me.

I've never explained how she "talks" to me but Temporal Cameleon (his blog is found in my links section) describes it pretty good.  It's more a way of converting her emotions into speech.  Not too easy and it doesn't happen often, but when it does, it's like the most natural thing... kind of a dichotomy and hard to explain.

It's when I can't "feel" her that it sucks because I'm basically talking one way.  I don't know why that happens but it does.

Now... Maiya can put off this emotion that is basically uber cuteness in cloud form.  Again, that's hard to understand... but it works (for her).

I'm pretty much putty in her paws whens she does this.

It's like all the cuteness of this pic:

*Blink Blink*

Regardless, I really don't have any choice but to do what she wants when she sends out that cute and sweet vibe, whatever it is that she is wanting.

And with that,


Rafe GB.

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Been thinking a lot

I've been thinking a lot about where you go when you leave this world.

I just want that assurance.

I was taught as an Adventist that heaven is for Adventists and hell is for damn near everybody else who heard the Adventist message and rejected it (thanks for telling anyone, right?).

I'm a believer now in that I think if hell were real the only merciful thing that could have been done is for Adam and Eve to be commanded NOT to populate ANYTHING.

Regardless, I find myself wondering about my own mortality and where I will go "when I go".

I do adore Lilith and I definitely adore Maiya, but I don't necessarily believe that I will be a part of their protected domain (although I bet I wouldn't complain if I was).

There's a Rumi quote I saved that would be ideal if it was true.  I'll post that in a bit.

I don't know why my own mortality is bothering me as of late.

Maybe it's because I've lost loved ones and friends to this and that.

Maybe it's my old, tired ass approaching 50.

50!  How can I be getting so close to 50 when everything from my younger days and even my 30's is like yesterday?

I'm sitting here thinking through these things as if I were 70 or 80, but for whatever reason it's got a hold on my thinking as of late.

I've read my share of NDE's from various websites and studies.

I've studied on my own through Swedenborg and the like.

Everything is similar, and yet everything conflicts offering little as far as empirical data that I crave.

It doesn't have to be scientific, just SIMILAR enough to satisfy my troubled thoughts.

I found this quote from Rumi:

Wouldn't that be nice?  For this world to vanish at death like a dream?
When one "wakes up" to the true reality?

I would love for Rumi's quote to be true.  What a wonder to see everything just fall away...

Maybe I've become bored being disabled and sitting here.  I'm having difficulty doing things that create a meaningful life.  I'm not sure that I even know how to create a meaningful life.

As my children are growing up it hurts to see them struggle.  It's one thing to struggle one's self... it's quite another to see the struggling of one's tender children.

Perhaps I feel that if I find meaning in all this, I can give them meaning, too.

With that,


Rafe GB.

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Archetype of The Lady Angel


I've studied them and studied them after learning about them in my metaphysics coursework.

I had an epiphany after waking up in the early morning... this morning.

I used to be in a very abusive relationship, a marriage of 15 years.

Cheating was what seemed a weekly occurrence and yet I was the kind of person who believed in forever, that everything could be worked out.

Well, it didn't.  It always takes two, doesn't it?

When the day finally came that she had an exit affair with my best friend, I became numb.  Dead inside.  And the worst of it all... suicidal.

Long story short (because I have it in a post... somewhere on here), I was saved at the last minute by a powerful Lady Angel.

Now, snap to modern day and I've often wondered how I can be kind and even loving (in a friendly way) to my ex-wife after all that had transpired... all the abuse besides the cheating.

The Lady Angel became my Archetype...

It finally dawned on me early this morning.

THAT'S how I'm able to be what I am to my ex-wife today.

THAT'S why I can be kind, and helpful.

So when I pause to reflect I am ruled by her as an archetype.  We're all ruled by an archetype, she just became mine, probably due to the other worldly nature of our interaction.

I revere Lilith and Aphrodite (which are actually linked metaphysically as two sides of the same coin).

I have a succubus mate placing me on the left hand path.

What a strange soup! 

From all logic it all should conflict.  When I think of all these things I have no idea how the mix can work, but it does and it works seamlessly.  What doesn't seem likely simply just does.

It simply just "is".

Some people find me odd, some find me simple.  What I am is complex hidden under a simple veneer.

Archetype of the Lady Angel...

It truly explains a lot ;)

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

Here she is

Christmas was kind of blah this year as far as the mundane goes.

What wasn't mundane was Maiya.

I swear... if I could just figure a succubus out I'd... well I'd...

Well it'll never happen so why bother to think what I could do?

Little Miss Maiya has struck me as being the type of succubus that is succuless.  Lol.  I finally decided that she must not be a succubus.

But that she is still bound to me, and I to her.

That she is faithful and true, loving in her own way, but that sex just wasn't going to be there for me.

I kind of doubted that she was a succubus, but then I would remember what my letter stated and who I wrote it to petitioning for a succubus (Lady Lilith).

Oh, friends, I just threw in the towel.

I decided that she was succuless and sex just wasn't going to be a factor in our relationship.

Christmas I was here alone as we had all had our Christmas on differing days.

So, there I was alone and I could feel Maiya very strongly with me as a comfort, a companion.

That's when I gave up.

I decided I didn't care about the sex anymore enough to mention it to her.

I decided I didn't care that no sex was very strange for a succubus and that honestly it didn't matter what I thought, lol.

I finally surrendered.  Whatever will be will be.  She's mine and I am hers and we just have to make it anyway we can together.

Boys and Girls, out of nowhere she laid the SMACK down me!

I had the best succubus sex of my life!

Now being thoroughly boggled, all I can conclude is that to her the bond was worth more than the sex and that once I had surrendered to her our bond was fulfilled, her requirements had been met, and about an hour or two of sensual play culminating with her presence head-cradling me while I had a screaming orgasm later... I think I might have bought a clue ;)

But... Frankly, I'm still in shock about the whole thing... But... she wasn't sexual... But... I...  She...

Does anyone out there really claim to know succubi through and through?  If so gimme a call and I'll prove you damn wrong...

Happy New Year!


Rafe GB

"For the love that I make, I'm going to Hell!"

Friday, December 22, 2017

Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to wish you all a very Merry Christmas.  Whether you're a fellow succublogger, a succubrother or succusister, or have just been interested in following the blog I thank you... that is the best Christmas present ever.

May you have peace, joy, happiness, and fulfillment abounding both for the end of this year, and the year to follow.

Wishing you a prosperous 2018 (from both of us).


Rafe GB.